It feels like EVERYthing is making me sick, I've been getting dizzy more often and today I had a total break down after I worked out. You will love this, I work out at a gym that has this program that if you meet all of the monthly requirements you earn a higher level. It's a 3 month program and so there are a bronze a silver and a gold level. I think if you earn the gold you get a discount on suplements for as long as you are a member. I had decided I would get to gold. Well on of the monthly requirements is that I have to attend this class one a month called Saturday Seminar. it's basically a big group work out where all the trainers run you through this hour long death match and see who survives. (I totally thought I blogged about this before, but I can't find it - grr)
Well I went to one this first month and barely made it. Seriously. It was bad. and I have been too big of a wuss to go back to another one. add to that that I have been not feeling well for like 2 weeks straight now. So I thought I would go at the same time as the seminar this morning and see how it looked before I dove in next week. Well....it basically resmebled a torture room. So I walked and I watched and I kept increasing my incline and speed, and I winced and my mental mouth hung open.
And as I left the gym I saw the trainers with a big group of people out behind the gym. They were bunny hopping accross the parking lot. after I'd seen then take 2 FUN RUNS, and do up downs, and army crawls, and mountain climbers and lift weights while doing lunges.
I started crying. why? I'm not entirely sure. I guess I was feeling scared. a common emotion in my life right now. And I felt like with how I have been feeling and how I was feeling at that moment that I was not capable of doing the things they were doing. I can barely stay upright on a treadmill for more than 25 minutes. No way was i going to keep my breakfast down or keep my head from spinning doing bunny hops accross phoenix. so I cried and I cried most of the way home.
I got home and sat down to stretch. and started crying again. sobbing I think would be the technical term.
Why? I DON'T KNOW.
I blubbered and cried and blubbered and chocked for liek 15 minutes and then. It was over and I was laughing and giggiling my face off.
I DON'T KNOW WHAT IS GOING ON WITH ME?!!!??!!!! But I think I am going to have to be committed soon.
Will you come visit me?
4 comments:
I'd love to come visit you. And honey, you are totally experiencing normal feelings. Don't beat yourself up over that. It sounds like you might not be feeling well. Just rest; relax. You don't have to keep up with any of those crazy people at the gym.
I totally visit you! With a care package in tow ;) don't stress lil lady some people are craaazy ur not!
i wish i could come visit you, but i'm your roommate in the looney bin!
LOVE YOU!! i hate it when i'm all emotional and cry-baby over everything.
Oh, friend...I hope you feel better soon!
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